Greg Brockman, president of OpenAI, recently found himself testifying in court while reading aloud some deeply personal entries from his diary. The journal, which he started as a teenager and continued to use throughout his professional life, now serves as evidence in a lawsuit between Elon Musk and OpenAI.

The entries, though not ashamed of them, Brockman considers intensely private reflections. They are more akin to a stream of consciousness than a straightforward log of actions or feelings, exploring various viewpoints and sometimes capturing messages from others to ponder their ideas.

In his testimony, Brockman had to read aloud some of the most embarrassing entries in front of a jury and an audience including a livestream with 1,200 viewers. The content allegedly shows OpenAI leaders’ decision-making process, including discussions about abandoning the nonprofit mission for personal gain.

The case highlights the tension between transparency and privacy, especially when it comes to private communications that might affect major decisions in tech companies. It also raises questions about how much of our inner thoughts should be revealed under public scrutiny.